Erm.. Hello.
I think about this website, this place I’ve been trying to make, all day every day. I come up with all these ideas and I have all these visions… So how is it that I’m typing this and yet again saying, “It’s been a really long time.”
I don’t know if it’s the mental illness. I don’t know if it’s the little time I have, or the burnout. I genuinely can’t come up with a good reason why I’m ready to once and for all abandon this completely. Poof. Gone. Bye bye. Reading of The Records disappears into the void for good.
Well maybe that’s a liiiiiiiitle dramatic.
But I don’t know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don’t have an answer for anything!!!!!!!! *voice raises 20 octaves higher*
I write allllllll the time. Literally all. The. Time. Over 100 notes have been collected on my phone, and my Google drive is overflowed with a chaos of words. All this writing I claim to do and guess what?! I’ve posted absolutely none of it. Why? Why? Why? Oh god using rhetorical questions is my one true passion.
The love is still there. Oh man is the love still there. I’m taking an AP writing class, a creative writing class, and a college broadcasting class this year. I’m the kid people would pay to write their essays. My mom pokes fun at it all the time. Most people my age get excited about parties, and football games, and the so called freedom of getting older. A good intro and conclusion is what sets my heart on fire.
I want to write things that people care about! I want to say things that get people talking. I want all of this to mean something! ANYTHING! They always say “do it for you” and “don’t care what other people say or think,” and I try! I really really try to post something and walk away and be ok with the 4 likes and 2 retweets and 3 views on the post. But I just want to reach people. I want to start conversations. I want this to be the thing that actually matters to me, and I want it to matter to other people too.
So once again I pose the question: What do you people want to read about?
Do I work my ass off and put out reviews on all the weekly shows? Is that too much? Do I spotlight a random person in wrestling every week and sing their praises? What about all the things that need fixing and the “controversial” issues that are surrounding the business of the squares circles? The ideas are all there, but is it going to leave a mark or matter or mean anything to anyone but my little heart that loves to write?
And once again she says, “I don’t know.”
If you read this far and have suggestions please let me know!
We’re all very much aware that “wrestling journalism” typically isn’t a good thing, but I really want this place to be something different.
Two hours later and I think I’ve ranted all I can rant. If this reached you, I’m not sure why but thanks for reading! I originally intended for this post to be our reset button, but the words of complaints and confusion poured out so deep and fast, I don’t know what hit me. Anyways uhhhhh I guess I should wrap this up? Yeah? Cool. K. Thanks again!!!
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